The Widow Ruckelshaus
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The Widow Ruckelshaus
2 Views · 1 year ago

You can find the first book in my Isaiah Cadre series here: ⁣https://amzn.to/3TAXGyj


Love you all,Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Threshold of Hineni
Sweetwater, Tennessee

The Widow Ruckelshaus
4 Views · 1 year ago

In some ways, things are getting better. In other ways, I feel like it's worse. Reality is setting in. (Recorded August 14, one month after the accident. Posted 3 years later, and to be honest, it's still hard. But I came to a recognition a week or two ago that I have to stop living for someone who isn't part of my life anymore. That's really hard and seems so stark, but it's the truth and I'm trying to figure out how to do that.)

Love you all,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee 37874

The Widow Ruckelshaus
3 Views · 1 year ago

Ugh! I hate making decisions!

Love you all,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus

Sweetwater, Tennessee 37874

The Widow Ruckelshaus
2 Views · 1 year ago


I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter. You can always buy the paperback here, if you'd prefer: https://amzn.to/3SdXsxl


If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://clikview.com/@isaiah3020


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Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
7 Views · 1 year ago

Here is the sermon I mentioned. I would highly recommend it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Odo03dStEsk&t=1625s It's called "Real Security and the Call of God." Sound appropriate?

Love you all,Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee

The Widow Ruckelshaus
3 Views · 2 years ago

If you're interested in Fingerprint jewelry, just go to Etsy.com and type "fingerprint jewelry" into the search bar. It changes all the time and there are some very beautiful items there.By the way, my dog Eli is doing so much better now. I found an herbal treatment for him, which is really helping with his arthritis. He has also decided that I'm now his person, so he hangs out with me a lot. Not as close as he was with Bill, but he's usually within a few feet of me, which is very special.


I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter. You can always buy the paperback here, if you'd prefer: https://amzn.to/3SdXsxl


If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
5 Views · 2 years ago

There are a lot of reasons a routine would really help. For one thing, it's very hard for me to think these days and even the smallest decisions are almost impossible. Also, I now have to do all the things I did AND all the things Bill did, so I need to figure out how to make that possible along with work and building my business which I need for ministry and my future. In addition to that, I no longer have Bill caring for me, so I need to be intentional about taking care of myself or I won't have as much to give others.One of the things I'm doing is trying to fix my craft room so my animals can be back there with me. It's hard to give up the room where I can breathe freely (I'm technically a little allergic), but they need me. (It will make it look a lot more organized, too.)There's so much that has to be done before I can even begin to figure out a routine.I also talk a little about financial challenges here. I have a lot of peace about this, even though there are still many unknowns. In the interest of transparency ... at 4-1/2 weeks, I am not honestly feeling as hopeful. I think the shock has worn off and I'm dealing more with grief. I still have hope, but I'm exhausted and hurting and sad. (And I'm told that's normal.)Here's a link to the song I quoted: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKMRRFQvaRo


I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter. You can always buy the paperback here, if you'd prefer: https://amzn.to/3SdXsxl


If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
7 Views · 2 years ago

Talking about some stuff that I'm experiencing ... kind of phantom living and part of me doing one thing while the other part of me looks normal (I think).I looked up the portion of Song of Solomon I thought of while I was talking. It was SOS 5:2-8.


I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
4 Views · 2 years ago

We married each other in a somewhat unusual way ...


By the way, I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
6 Views · 2 years ago

Books I recommended:It's Okay to Laugh by Laura McInerny Purmort: https://amzn.to/318iVwBI Wasn't Ready to Say Good-Bye by Brook Noel and Pamela Blair, PhD: https://amzn.to/2yonfeD365 Days of Hope by Joni Eareckson Tada and Dave Dravecky: https://amzn.to/2GEqseEI would also highly recommend this website, which has recorded interviews and resources for grieving: http://hopehealinghelp.com/


By the way, I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

*I earn a very small commission when you use my Amazon links. It doesn't cost you anything extra and it's just a tiny bit, but it adds up to help me out.

*Please note that any link I provide that takes you to Amazon could result in my being paid a small referral fee from Amazon. This doesn't cost you anything, but can help me make ends meet. Also, please know that I only recommend things that I feel I can stand behind.

The Widow Ruckelshaus
8 Views · 2 years ago


I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
3 Views · 2 years ago

Something that I felt called to when we went to his pickup. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it yet. I've learned since recording this video that this is the intake manifold.This is one of those things where I just may be really weird. I don't know if anyone else will relate to this.I tell some of what I learned from watching the videos of the accident yesterday.Please understand that I'm not recommending that everyone do what I did -- especially seeing the videos, seeing the truck (and the picture of the other car), and even reading his medical reports. I've had a lot of experience dealing with pretty gruesome details and I was a medical transcriptionist for years, so I'm probably better prepared to handle seeing and hearing the things that I saw that day. I also have a better understanding of the meaning of the medical report because of this. It did help answer a lot of questions for me, but it really might be too much for most people, especially women, to see and hear. It might be more appropriate for most people -- women especially -- to ask a trusted friend to view these things for them, so that they can get their questions answered.Also, FAIR WARNING: I get a little preachy toward men near the end. Sorry. I think I was experiencing a little of the anger stage of grief. At the same time, I do wish men would listen to and try to hear what I'm getting at, despite the preachiness. Wives are often left at the mercy of their husbands, who often don't really stop and think about how their actions could affect their wives. And truly, we often do know more than you (or we) think we do. Women tend to gather knowledge intuitively, which is hard for us to put into words. Our input is, nonetheless, often very insightful and accurate and I don't think our husbands take advantage of that as often as they should.

By the way, I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

*I earn a very small commission when you use my Amazon links. It doesn't cost you anything extra and it's just a tiny bit, but it adds up to help me out.

The Widow Ruckelshaus
6 Views · 2 years ago


By the way, I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

I was widowed 3 years ago when my husband was killed in a car accident. I share my journey here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@widow

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Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
4 Views · 2 years ago

Trying to figure out what my life is supposed to be like.This is the book I was talking about, "It's Okay to Laugh" - https://amzn.to/2ypNl0N *Myers/Briggs type test: https://www.16personalities.co....m/free-personality-t

By the way, I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

*I earn a very small commission when you use my Amazon links. It doesn't cost you anything extra and it's just a tiny bit, but it adds up to help me out.

The Widow Ruckelshaus
7 Views · 2 years ago

Finally meeting in person!


I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

*I earn a very small commission when you use my Amazon links. It doesn't cost you anything extra and it's just a tiny bit, but it adds up to help me out.

The Widow Ruckelshaus
7 Views · 2 years ago

Being a good steward of what my husband invested in me as a person.Here is the article I wrote about intimacy and how we incorporated that in our marriage and invested in each other: https://www.facebook.com/Alyce....KayRuckelshaus/posts Spiritual Warfare/Worship Playlist: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4XHX7Tp2wY0&list=PL-qJGkcLR7n5AlKUQ_CKyECmWmK5WVzPv


By the way, I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
10 Views · 2 years ago

An update: In reading about grief, I've learned that these "visions" are common among survivors of sudden, traumatic grief. They're called "instant replays," though I think I would call them "incessant replays."

Each of the suggestions mentioned here have helped a lot, but the thing that finally ENDED the replays was seeing the two videos of my husband's accident. They were HORRIFYING to watch, but they filled in the blanks that my mind was apparently trying to figure out.

I was also recently contacted by one of the four men who were at the scene with him after the accident. He was able to fill in a lot of details and help me through much of this as well. Talking to people like this has also really helped to restore some of my faith in humanity. There were good people who were with my husband in his last moments and that means ever so much to me.

The song, Whom Shall I Fear (God of Angel Armies) by Chris Tomlin: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOkImV2cJDg

Also, if you need to contact me privately, you may do so by using the Contact link at the bottom of every page on my website: http://thresholdofhineni.com/

The Widow Ruckelshaus
5 Views · 2 years ago

You can tell by my tone that I'm actually doing considerably better. I'm still really struggling, but seem to be starting to figure out how to live without him. After sharing about these replays of the accident with my friends on Facebook, I received many good suggestions for dealing with these. I'll share about these in the next video.

By the way, I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
5 Views · 2 years ago

Since we didn't use our plans, I'd love it if someone else did ...


I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

The Widow Ruckelshaus
11 Views · 2 years ago

I talk a bit about how my dad, a CPA, has suggested I organize things in order to figure out what's going on with my finances, what the patterns are, and how I should organize them. I didn't mention that after sorting all the bills by company, they go into hanging folders by type: Insurance, mortgage, medical, utilities, taxes, business, etc. Once I get all my papers in, I'll get them into date order (highlight the date due and the amount). From there, we can figure out what the pattern is, what might be behind, etc. Then we can come up with a plan!The other thing we did in this video was discuss Philippians 4:6-7


I write transformational fiction and the first two books in my Isaiah Cadre series are available free in ebook form! You can get the first one here: ⁣https://dl.bookfunnel.com/es49ch5nyr After you read that book, the next one comes along with a free subscription to my newsletter.

If you'd like to join me for Bible study, prayer, and inspiration, I have another CrwdView channel: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@isaiah3020


If you like crafting tutorials, I have a crafting channel here: ⁣https://crwdview.com/@alycekayr

⁣ Please help me build my channel and our community by commenting, liking, & sharing this video ... and subscribe if you haven't already.

Love, love, love,
Alyce-Kay Ruckelshaus
Sweetwater, Tennessee USA

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